Aditi Bhalla’s story reads like a cautionary tale about high achievement. A specialist prosthodontist who ticked every box—academic success, specialist training, teaching positions—she found herself breaking down in surgery in 2018, asking the question so many high achievers eventually face: is this it?
After developing De Quervain’s tenosynovitis from repetitive movements and stress, Aditi was forced to step away from dentistry. What followed was an unexpected journey into spirituality, meditation, and ultimately, retraining as an integrative psychotherapist.
Now she works predominantly with dentists and other professionals who’ve achieved everything they thought they wanted but still feel lost, anxious, and burnt out. Her transformation from perfectionist dentist to spiritual guide offers a roadmap for those struggling with the same questions she once faced.
In This Episode
00:02:15 – High achievers feeling lost
00:03:10 – The perfectionism plateau
00:04:10 – Growing up as the brainy kid
00:06:35 – School captain to dental specialist
00:08:15 – Choosing prosthodontics
00:10:20 – Breaking down in surgery
00:11:45 – Discovering spirituality
00:14:30 – The spiritual awakening path
00:21:00 – Retraining as a psychotherapist
00:28:00 – Meditation fundamentals
00:32:25 – Breathwork techniques
00:42:00 – Self-compassion versus weakness
00:44:00 – Contentment and ambition coexisting
00:46:20 – The wrist injury that changed everything
00:57:15 – Therapy versus dentistry
01:00:00 – Understanding spirituality
01:03:10 – Blackbox thinking
01:12:10 – The Wellbeing Hub
01:14:35 – Fantasy dinner party
01:16:20 – Last days and legacy
About Aditi Bhalla
Aditi is a former specialist prosthodontist who trained in India before completing her specialist training at King’s College London. She lectured for both King’s and Health Education England, teaching occlusion and toothwear, whilst working in multiple practices across the Southeast.
After developing Dequervain’s tenosynovitis—a repetitive strain injury that left her unable to continue clinical work—she embarked on a spiritual journey that transformed her career. Now an integrative psychotherapist, life coach, and wellness advocate, she works predominantly with dentists, bankers, and medical professionals experiencing burnout and existential questioning despite their professional success.
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[VOICE]: This [00:00:30] is Dental Leaders. [00:00:35] The podcast where you get to go one on one with [00:00:40] emerging leaders in dentistry. Your [00:00:45] hosts Payman Langroudi and Prav Solanki.
Payman Langroudi: It [00:00:50] gives me great pleasure to welcome Doctor Aditi Bhalla onto the podcast. Aditi [00:00:55] is a specialist prosthodontist who is no longer working because [00:01:00] of medical concerns we’ll get into. But at the same time, a [00:01:05] intuitive, integrative psychotherapist, life coach, um, [00:01:10] healing through meditation, yoga. I see so many things you do, [00:01:15] I don’t even understand some of it. So massive pleasure to have you.
Aditi Bhalla: Thank you. Thank you [00:01:20] so much for having me. I’m really excited for the conversation ahead.
Payman Langroudi: It feels like you’ve done podcasts before, have you?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. [00:01:25] Have you just just like a couple? Not yeah. Not in person. I was just. [00:01:30]
Payman Langroudi: Oh, really?
Aditi Bhalla: Really? Yeah. Yeah, yeah. So this is this is good. It’s nice to have the in-person interaction [00:01:35] and. Yeah, it’s always better.
Payman Langroudi: So tell me let’s let’s just dive straight in and [00:01:40] talk about, uh, kind of a typical situation of [00:01:45] a person, let’s call it stuck for whatever reason. Let’s [00:01:50] talk about what is what do you come across in our profession? Is it only dentists, by the way, [00:01:55] that you. Yes.
Aditi Bhalla: So also I work with some bankers and [00:02:00] medics, but it’s similar kind of theme. Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Plastic dentists anyway. Yeah. [00:02:05] So you’re a dentist? I’m a dentist. A dentist is find themselves in a situation. [00:02:10] What kinds of situations are we talking when it comes to, you know, the kind of patients, the kind of [00:02:15] people you’re seeing?
Aditi Bhalla: The kind of people I’m seeing are mainly they come to me saying, well, [00:02:20] I’ve done everything I needed to and I’ve ticked all the boxes, but I still feel lost, [00:02:25] I feel unhappy, I feel anxious, I can’t sleep at night, I’m [00:02:30] lost. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where life is going and I need help. I feel like [00:02:35] nothing is moving forward. Nothing’s bringing me joy.
Payman Langroudi: Even though on paper everything looks [00:02:40] okay.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes.
Payman Langroudi: So is it more like that than. Oh, I’ve got these on paper problems also [00:02:45] sometimes.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, they, they also sort of co-exist. Sort of. But yeah, [00:02:50] mainly it comes across as that, you know I don’t know I don’t know where life is going. Okay. [00:02:55]
Payman Langroudi: And then what is your central thesis on this subject like? Why? What has caused [00:03:00] this in this person? Seemingly high flyer. What has happened to make [00:03:05] them feel this way? I think in general, of course. Different for each person.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, different for each [00:03:10] person. But generally I think there’s a theme. We’re so busy ticking boxes [00:03:15] achieving, achieving, achieving. Even if you see people who enter dentistry, they’re all they’ve done really [00:03:20] well in.
Payman Langroudi: School.
Aditi Bhalla: Already. Yeah. Already high achievers. You know it’s just going so there’s with [00:03:25] everything there’s going to be a plateau right. You reach that and you start to question life. You start to [00:03:30] question.
Payman Langroudi: Is this it?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Is this it? Like, did I work so hard to just this. [00:03:35] And then there’s this constant worry about the materialistic things you know. So yeah [00:03:40] there’s that plateau point you reach and you [00:03:45] feel like you’re lost. You just don’t know. You were promised this happiness. [00:03:50] I say, yeah, but where is it? Yeah. And that’s the question that I mainly come across. And I [00:03:55] also see a bit of perfectionism.
Payman Langroudi: Over perfectionism.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Yeah. Always.
Payman Langroudi: It’s [00:04:00] within us. It’s within us. The kind of person who ends up becoming a dentist.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. Perfectionism [00:04:05] is I feel like it’s a criteria they look for. But don’t tell us.
Payman Langroudi: I [00:04:10] bet. I mean, you studied in India. Yes. I bet getting into dental school in India [00:04:15] is a nightmare. Like you have to be on top of your everything. Yeah. Top of your class and.
Aditi Bhalla: Top of your class. [00:04:20] Top of everything. You have to give this this central exam where you have to get a really high score to be [00:04:25] get chosen into dental school.
Payman Langroudi: I don’t mean to be the psychotherapist in this, in this [00:04:30] situation, but. But were you always this high achiever since day [00:04:35] dot or do you remember, like in your childhood, a moment like something some some sort of catalyst [00:04:40] that said, now you’re the brainy kid.
Aditi Bhalla: Like, I think between [00:04:45] me and my brother, I was always labelled a brainy kid. So I had to sort of keep proving myself.
Payman Langroudi: Keep that [00:04:50] going. Yeah. And that itself is a source of stress, right?
Aditi Bhalla: Like, I had to keep up to that reputation, [00:04:55] whereas I feel like my brother was just let. You know, let.
Payman Langroudi: Off like the sporty kid or whatever. The funny kid [00:05:00] or.
Aditi Bhalla: The naughty.
Payman Langroudi: Kid, like.
Aditi Bhalla: Nothing’s coming out. But actually he’s doing he’s doing really, really [00:05:05] well. And I’m just like. Why did I work?
Payman Langroudi: So have you got kids?
Aditi Bhalla: I’ve got I’ve got a little one. I’ve got [00:05:10] a four year old boy. Yeah, just the one.
Payman Langroudi: So you don’t recognise it yet. But what happens with [00:05:15] when you have 2 or 3 or however? I don’t know what I noticed here is the let’s say [00:05:20] the four year old starts reading six months ahead of his class because you [00:05:25] keep on getting him to read or adding or multiplying or whatever. Yeah, and he does. He does quite well. [00:05:30] Right. Because you kind of and then you think, oh, you’re really clever. Yeah. And then he like you said, he wants [00:05:35] to live up to that now. So he tries a bit harder to please you and you put him into the clever box. [00:05:40] Yeah. Second one comes along. Clever is taken. Yes. Yeah. Now what tends to happen is [00:05:45] a parent is you look out for something other than clever in this one, and funny or [00:05:50] sporty or naughty or whatever comes up and you’re going to put that one put, put that into [00:05:55] that sort of, um, pigeonhole. Yeah. And apparently a third one comes [00:06:00] along and apparently a billionaires are disproportionately the [00:06:05] fourth kid. Wow. Because the first three obvious things are taken and they have to be very, like, creative [00:06:10] to take a different pigeonhole, you know, one that’s they’re going to be comfortable being [00:06:15] an outsider and still achieving. Yeah. So do you recognise [00:06:20] literally that seven year old EDT, um, in your 27 [00:06:25] year old like, like wanting to be the best in dental school, the best and not thinking [00:06:30] outside of that, like you’re getting all your kudos from that. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: I mean, even at [00:06:35] seven years old, I was a very, very creative. I was the school. I was the school captain. I [00:06:40] was the leader of my group. I was playing harmonium. I was in every everything [00:06:45] that was going on, I was there, I was a part of it. I was winning it. I was doing it. [00:06:50]
Payman Langroudi: So was your first knock back the wrist situation or did you have others?
Aditi Bhalla: No, I’ve [00:06:55] had others in school. I think when we moved to Dubai, uh, it [00:07:00] was a massive move. I’d left all my friends behind. And it was a new school. New everything. Uh, [00:07:05] I did really poorly in one of my physics tests, and that was really the disappointment. [00:07:10] Not just what I felt, but what I saw in my parents eyes. Oh, I think that that [00:07:15] what really hit me like, oh, my God, like, what is going on? So yeah, [00:07:20] I think that that really hit me. Uh, and in similar thing happened [00:07:25] at uni when I was doing anatomy.
Payman Langroudi: And did you you [00:07:30] grew up in Dubai until university or before. Did you go back to India before [00:07:35] finishing school?
Aditi Bhalla: Before finishing school? Uh, no. So I [00:07:40] did my so for my high school from my high school, uh, point, I moved to Dubai.
Payman Langroudi: So then at the end, why didn’t [00:07:45] you go to university somewhere else other than India? Why? Why choose India? I think you could have gone somewhere [00:07:50] else.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, I could have. Uh, but my parents kind of made that decision for me. [00:07:55] But also, you know, you’re going away to a completely different country. You want to go back to the known, [00:08:00] and you want to be in a city where there are people around you. So if in case something happens, you can always fall back [00:08:05] on for help. And I think that was the reason why India was always [00:08:10] the point of choice.
Payman Langroudi: And then do you think you were going to specialise all along?
Aditi Bhalla: No.
Payman Langroudi: When [00:08:15] did you decide to do that? Why did you decide to do that?
Aditi Bhalla: I think I decided to do that after, [00:08:20] uh, after obviously finishing. When I was thinking for, thinking at, looking at career [00:08:25] paths, like, what do I want to do? Uh, almost everybody. Because, again, all high achievers, [00:08:30] they go on to doing specialist training in India. Yeah, yeah. So I said, right, this is what I need to do. [00:08:35] Uh, but then, yeah, prosthodontics sort of just came along. [00:08:40] It wasn’t my first choice. It was, however, pointed out to me by my [00:08:45] professors, by my mentors that I’m really good at this. And when I went into practice, I [00:08:50] did see that this naturally came to me. Uh, it was something that came easy to me. Verses, [00:08:55] verses all the, all the other things. So I just started applying and I got [00:09:00] in and. Yeah, that’s that’s how special.
Payman Langroudi: That was.
Aditi Bhalla: Here. That was here. Yeah. At [00:09:05] schmul and, uh.
Payman Langroudi: Ambitious, ambitious person. You want to go [00:09:10] and now you want to go and specialise in the UK? Yeah. Did you consider America?
Aditi Bhalla: I [00:09:15] didn’t, because the plan was never to, you know, people who moved to America generally wanted. Yeah, they want to stay [00:09:20] there. Whereas my plan was never to stay. Stay in the UK or even.
Payman Langroudi: Why? Because you loved India so much. [00:09:25]
Aditi Bhalla: Well, no, because I wanted to go and live in Dubai with, you know, be around my family. [00:09:30] Yes. They were still settled there. Uh, and. Yeah. Working in Dubai.
Payman Langroudi: You met your husband. Your [00:09:35] current husband?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. Yes, I met my husband and we decided to. He’s also from [00:09:40] India and he had already done all of his his exams and stuff.
Payman Langroudi: So specialist.
Aditi Bhalla: To. [00:09:45]
Payman Langroudi: Know No. No implant.
Aditi Bhalla: The implant guy. And, um. Yeah. So [00:09:50] I decided I’m gonna stay back, stay here, give my exams. So I did my [00:09:55] first, uh, Em pros, and then I did my. So I went [00:10:00] the other way. Other way.
Payman Langroudi: Combined and combined teaching and practice [00:10:05] and motherhood. Yes.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. So I was lecturing for Schmuhl. I [00:10:10] was also lecturing for Health Education England, uh, teaching occlusion and toothwear and. [00:10:15] Yeah, and and motherhood and also.
Payman Langroudi: So did you hit this same. [00:10:20] Is this all it is? You know, that same empty feeling that we’re talking about our patients, [00:10:25] our particular dentists. Were you that person?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes, I definitely hit that.
Payman Langroudi: Talk [00:10:30] me through it. Like what was what was going through your like feeling. What were you feeling? [00:10:35] Is this all there is? What’s wrong with what there was? You were specialist. You’re [00:10:40] teaching husband, child. What was the thing that was missing?
Aditi Bhalla: It just from from [00:10:45] within. Internally.
Payman Langroudi: It just.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. It was just that feeling like the life [00:10:50] has to be something more. Like I’ve done everything that was asked of me. I’ve [00:10:55] achieved, achieved, achieved. Yeah. And you know, there’s this, this illusion of happiness. Like, [00:11:00] where is it? You know, where, like, I don’t see it. I’m hustling every day. I’m [00:11:05] working really hard. And this feels very hard. It feels very stressful. So where [00:11:10] is it? And I did have I did have an incident in 2018 where I [00:11:15] did break down in the surgery. It was just tears and I could not understand it. [00:11:20] And I upon reflection, yeah, it was just that feeling that that [00:11:25] I was lost as well. I had also reached a plateau and I also I needed help. [00:11:30] Um, so that’s that’s what I did. And this is why all [00:11:35] of the spiritual side, all of the other training came about because it was me, again, [00:11:40] the perfectionist in me. I wanted to learn it all. I wanted to know it all.
Payman Langroudi: Were you a spiritual [00:11:45] kind of person before all this or not?
Aditi Bhalla: Not at.
Payman Langroudi: All. So interesting.
Aditi Bhalla: Not at all.
Payman Langroudi: That’s so interesting, isn’t it?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. [00:11:50] Not at all. But my mum is very spiritual. She always did. [00:11:55] She always talked about angels and just believing. And she would always do, like, [00:12:00] you know, a little bit of healing on her. She wouldn’t call it that. But, you know, it was always like, oh mum will mum [00:12:05] will heal it kind of a thing. So when, um, when I did feel low [00:12:10] when I went through that phase in 2018 and, and of course my first point of contact was go to [00:12:15] the GP, I’ve got to fix this. You know, my scientific brain saying there’s got to be a solution [00:12:20] where the solution was a prescription and I didn’t I didn’t want just that, [00:12:25] you know, I wanted I needed more. And so I said, right, I’m going to look at other things, which [00:12:30] I did. And it just started with a simple, uh, Reiki healing session. Um, [00:12:35] not very mainstream, but it was kind of like, I’m willing to try everything [00:12:40] right now because I want to feel better, I want to I want to look for this happiness. And [00:12:45] I started meditating. I started going back to my roots. We used to do yoga in school, so I [00:12:50] started connecting back with it and I started to get better, feel better. And [00:12:55] that’s where that’s what opened the doors to spirituality. Uh, I started.
Payman Langroudi: I’ve [00:13:00] got a family member, one of my family. Super brain, absolute super brain, but cleverest [00:13:05] guy I know. Yeah, of all the people I’ve met and the high achiever, [00:13:10] you know, he was one of these guys. He was on a he was on a plane. More than it’s legal for pilots [00:13:15] to be on a plane because it was just Monday in Frankfurt, Tuesday in Dubai, Wednesday in London like that. [00:13:20] Yeah. And then he got ill. Yeah. And he ended up in hospital for, I [00:13:25] don’t know, eight weeks or something. And then he quit his job and [00:13:30] he became super spiritual. And before that he was super scientific. He had a PhD [00:13:35] in mechanical engineering and all that super spiritual after that. The. And [00:13:40] it sounds like you went through a similar pathway.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. And to be honest, there’s so many [00:13:45] of us out there, you know, bankers, lawyers, all of them achieve done, done it all. And then suddenly [00:13:50] something takes in you just like, right, what is going on? You question. And [00:13:55] yes, that’s that’s exactly what happened with me.
Payman Langroudi: And so this toolkit that you kind of offer [00:14:00] your clients and that you’ve probably developed for yourself. Right. Is it is it something [00:14:05] along? I’ve told this story before. Um, I had one of those, uh, do you remember back [00:14:10] in the day to one a CD multi changer? Yes. Yeah, I had six CDs [00:14:15] in it. And one day something happened. It broke. And only those six CDs. I couldn’t take it out anymore. [00:14:20] It was only those six. And at the time I was driving all over the country for enlightened, [00:14:25] trying to see people. And so I only had these. So I listened to one of the six [00:14:30] was one CD of Anthony Robbins, Tony Robbins. Yeah, [00:14:35] that one I listened to maybe 100 times because I listened to everything. That’s all I [00:14:40] had. Yeah. And it was. It was the. It was the five questions you should ask yourself [00:14:45] when you’re in overwhelm. And that one lesson stuck [00:14:50] with me. The rest of the other 19 CDs. I don’t know what happened because I listened to that one. So. But is that what we’re [00:14:55] talking? Is that. Is that when you say toolkit? Yeah. If I’m in overwhelm, what do I do? [00:15:00]
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: So is that it? Is that the kind of thing we’re talking.
Aditi Bhalla: Kind of thing? Yes. But it’s a [00:15:05] wary because of my varied, you know, training. Yeah. I think I’ve sort of like, combined [00:15:10] and like.
Payman Langroudi: Different.
Aditi Bhalla: Things. Yeah. Yeah. So it could be anything from like imagery or [00:15:15] breathing or questioning yourself, you know, different things for different situation. I don’t say [00:15:20] one size fits all. And even for me, in my own practice, I would say that, you know, when I feel [00:15:25] in, oh, well, not one thing will fit on all the days. It would be different things. So yeah, that’s that’s [00:15:30] kind of the thing I’m talking about and I’m really focussed on prevention. I really, [00:15:35] you know, I really believe that we’re so focussed on preventing oral disease for our patients, but we’ve not [00:15:40] considered prevention of burnout.
Payman Langroudi: I mean, you’re making lots of good points here. Don’t wait till you’re on [00:15:45] the edge of, you know, brink of of your life before trying to address these things. Right.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. [00:15:50] Just, you know, there are ways we can prevent things. There are ways you, you know, things [00:15:55] we can put in place that that will not let you, that will let you enjoy the career that you [00:16:00] worked so hard for. You’ve studied so hard for. And you know you can keep going. It’s sustainable [00:16:05] growth. It’s sustainable success. That’s what you want to aim for.
Payman Langroudi: You know, in mental health in general, [00:16:10] right. There’s there’s lots of different sort of, I don’t know, niches. I guess it’s a bit like dentistry. [00:16:15] Right. You’ve got you’ve got ortho, you’ve got and one, one that seems to be [00:16:20] keep coming up. And I see it all over your content is this notion of like I’m not enough kind [00:16:25] of thing or, you know, be kinder to yourself kind of thing. Yeah. Which [00:16:30] is very important. Yeah. But I feel like I’ve got the opposite problem too. [00:16:35] Kind to myself and in a way, like, does that mean you’re not the right healer [00:16:40] for me? You know, like, it’s kind of an interesting thing. Is there another guy who’s, like, focussed on [00:16:45] my issues?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. I mean, well, yes and no.
Payman Langroudi: Because [00:16:50] the way I saw your content, it almost looks like it’s a pandemic of not being kind enough to yourself. [00:16:55] Yeah. And is it that a woman thing.
Aditi Bhalla: Or not being. Uh. [00:17:00]
Payman Langroudi: Well, because women are projecting perfection like too much.
Aditi Bhalla: I think [00:17:05] men men are just not, you know, you’re expected to come out of university, get a job, provide for your [00:17:10] families, and then you’re done. Whereas for a woman, it’s not just a modern woman, it’s not just the [00:17:15] career, but it’s also the home, the motherhood, you know, everything else. [00:17:20] You’ve got to be good at everything. And I think that does lead to a lot of.
Payman Langroudi: There’s [00:17:25] a there’s a background stress. And I guess you’re saying there’s like a cumulative stress that [00:17:30] you’re not really fully onto until it gets you.
Aditi Bhalla: And it gets to you.
Payman Langroudi: Because I [00:17:35] sit in a cafe and I see four women having coffee together, and they all look so happy [00:17:40] and perfect together. And and then four guys sitting there all sort of looking. [00:17:45] And I reflect on that question of like, what it is to be a woman. You have to look perfect. Yes. [00:17:50]
Aditi Bhalla: You’ve got to have everything perfect.
Payman Langroudi: Otherwise what? Otherwise you’re not a good woman like you. [00:17:55]
Aditi Bhalla: Otherwise you’re just people just have this fear of judgement. This fear of [00:18:00] I have somehow failed in life by not doing the things I was meant [00:18:05] to be doing, and I made, I made this really funny, funny thing where, you [00:18:10] know, as, as an Indian, you’re supposed to make rotis, you know, they’re meant to be round. Because if they’re not [00:18:15] round, they’re not you cannot eat them. It’s almost like they’re inedible.
Payman Langroudi: Is that.
Aditi Bhalla: Right? So [00:18:20] it’s like, why do I why do my rotis have to be round? Why can’t they be a map [00:18:25] shape? They’re still a roti. You’re still eating them. It’s they’re you know, they’re nutritious. So it’s about [00:18:30] basic things. It starts from a very young age that it’s got to be all in order. The bed sheets have [00:18:35] got to be, you know, all done. Everything has to be done in an orderly way. I don’t [00:18:40] remember seeing, you know, any man around me being taught similar things. So I think the messaging [00:18:45] starts very starts out very differently. Yeah. You’re right. Even when you’re growing up. [00:18:50] So I don’t know whether it’s it’s only a woman thing. I think men go through it a little bit as well. [00:18:55] It’s just that they’re not allowed to maybe not given permission enough to talk about it, to express [00:19:00] it. Um, and but I think women sort of are more, you [00:19:05] know, they’re more into their emotions. They talk, they like to talk about. And I think that’s where it comes across. Yeah. [00:19:10]
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. And then this happiness thing that you’re saying, um, there’s a lot of [00:19:15] confusion around happiness. Even myself, I think I was 45 before I worked out that [00:19:20] there’s a difference between happiness and pleasure. Yeah. You know, and now [00:19:25] I feel like happy. I’m not even chasing happiness anymore. Like I used to [00:19:30] think happiness was the thing, and I was chasing it through pleasure and joy. And now I feel like. [00:19:35] And some things presented to me, whether it’s anything a business or whatever, I [00:19:40] kind of start measuring it in peace terms, like, is this going to add [00:19:45] to peace or is it going to take away from peace? And sometimes it works in mysterious ways, right? Because [00:19:50] there’s a product I really want to do. And if I don’t do it, I’m not going to be at peace. [00:19:55] You know, like, think of it. And those are the only ones that I’m going to now look at. I’m not going [00:20:00] to look at anything else. Only the ones that that compelling. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: Because they’re kind of [00:20:05] bringing you joy on the journey because you’re looking from what I’m hearing is that you’re seeking joy in [00:20:10] your journey. And I feel like that’s what happiness is all about. It’s not an end destination. [00:20:15] It’s not what you’re going to get to. It’s what you’re going to receive while you’re on this journey [00:20:20] of life. You know, even when you’re doing dentistry, you’re not going to find happiness in that piece of paper [00:20:25] you get at the end of five years. It’s everything that you’ve done in those five years. But this is not [00:20:30] something that’s talked about mainstream. So I think what you’re talking exactly.
Payman Langroudi: And is [00:20:35] are you linking somehow the compassion you have for your patient with the compassion you have for yourself and your [00:20:40] team?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes, absolutely.
Payman Langroudi: Because the type of person we’re good with patients, but [00:20:45] we don’t extend that to ourselves and our teams.
Aditi Bhalla: No, we don’t even talk about it. Forget extending [00:20:50] it. We’re only about patient care. Patient care, patient care. You’re just pouring out, out, out. [00:20:55] But what’s going to happen is you’re going to you’re going to, you know, be left with this empty cup. You’re [00:21:00] going to feel depleted because there’s only so much you can put out. You’ve got to fill in your own cup [00:21:05] as well. And, you know, once you do that, of course patient care is going to get better. Of course, working [00:21:10] with your staff is going to feel amazing because you’ve taken taken that [00:21:15] time to fill your own cup. You know, simple example when we go [00:21:20] on a flight, what do they say? Put on your own mask first. It’s kind of like that. Yeah, you’ve got to. [00:21:25] Also, it’s not selfish. And we’re taught that it’s a bit selfish taking time out for yourself. You [00:21:30] feel all of the shame, the guilt. But it’s not. You’ve got to take care of your own self [00:21:35] first before you can actually care for your patients, for your for your team, for your family members. [00:21:40] And it’s absolutely essential. And in when I talk about compassion, [00:21:45] it flows in three ways. We’re so good. You know, in giving compassion to others. [00:21:50] We’re not good at receiving it from others because we get a bit like, ooh, you know, you know, [00:21:55] our body sort of the mood. It’s like, whoa, whoa, what just happened? Yeah. Uh, [00:22:00] and our our compassion to ourselves that is non-existent. It’s not talked about. It’s [00:22:05] not taught to us. It’s almost. Yeah, a selfish notion. So that [00:22:10] that’s that’s the kind of compassion I’m talking about, that it flows in all three ways.
Payman Langroudi: But [00:22:15] you’re saying it’s similar skills. The skills we have already just need to apply it to ourselves. [00:22:20] Yes. It’s interesting. It’s very interesting idea. Yeah. So how about the team? [00:22:25] Give me an example of that.
Aditi Bhalla: How it would flow to your flow to your team.
Payman Langroudi: It’s [00:22:30] one of my bugbears. Yeah, that dentistry’s gotten a lot better for patients [00:22:35] over the years. Like I stopped practising 2012, but you [00:22:40] know, from 1995 till 2025, these this 30 [00:22:45] years. Yeah. Then she’s gotten really good for the patient, you know, painless scanners. [00:22:50] Everything’s beautiful. Clean coffee, all of that. Um, it’s [00:22:55] gotten pretty decently well for dentists as well. Yeah. You know, cosmetic [00:23:00] dentistry wants dentistry. Instagram. What that’s [00:23:05] done to dentistry. It’s not every every part of life hasn’t gone up in the same way. Visual [00:23:10] stuff like food and dentistry and art and dancing, those things have really taken. So. But [00:23:15] for the for the team hasn’t really changed in 30 [00:23:20] years. And dental practices tend to be hierarchical Cool institutions. [00:23:25] Yeah. And I’ve worked in some practices where, [00:23:30] you know, there’s two distinct teams going on. You know, it’s her and her fans [00:23:35] and and you know, the it can be working in a practice can be [00:23:40] super tough. Nurses for me the the most important people [00:23:45] in the practice and yet the least in the hierarchy, the lowest in the hierarchy. [00:23:50] Yeah. Give me some practice management team issues where this sort [00:23:55] of thinking relates.
Aditi Bhalla: I think the first thing to really [00:24:00] highlight is, you know, that we’re all human beings. We’ve got to come, you know, you’ve got to just [00:24:05] I absolutely dislike this hierarchy. Yeah. Because when I worked with my [00:24:10] nurse and I saw her as a human being, saw her problems as my problems, and I could address [00:24:15] them. There’s an equality. And then things flow really well. Yeah. And it’s it almost [00:24:20] comes down to not everything is business. Yes. Business is really important, but it [00:24:25] can’t work without people. So if you can’t, you know, bring in that humanness. If you cannot [00:24:30] bring in that, that that basic level of love and respect, you know, that mutuality [00:24:35] between your team members, there’s going to be friction, there’s going to [00:24:40] be resentment, and everyone’s going to feel guilty. Everyone’s going [00:24:45] to feel the shame and the perfectionism. It just keeps going on because you’re expecting everyone to operate [00:24:50] at a machine level. Well guess what? We’re not machines. We’re humans. We come with a backstory. [00:24:55] We come with, we come with no manual. So every day is going to be [00:25:00] different. And it’s all about coming down to that basic level of understanding. [00:25:05]
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. And look, so two humans are in a room working together. Yeah. [00:25:10] There’s a hierarchy. To the extent that there are some things that this human can ask [00:25:15] for, but there are some things that a nurse can say to you that you’re going to have to do as the dentist. [00:25:20] Many things. Yeah, many, many things. And so the idea [00:25:25] that I tell you what to do is demeaning, [00:25:30] number one. But but number two, you know, we know dentists commit suicide more than [00:25:35] many other professions, take their own lives, more than many other professions. And [00:25:40] me and Ryan had been looking at that and saying, why? Why? And you can say stuff like GDC and all [00:25:45] that. Yeah, but it’s been going on for 100 years. Yeah, yeah, 100 years ago, dentists were killing themselves [00:25:50] more than other professionals as well. Yeah. So what is it? So we [00:25:55] know it’s stressful when the patient’s stressed. We know all that. But one thing that I’ve thought all [00:26:00] the time is, as a dentist, you’re in this room with this nurse. Yeah. If relations between [00:26:05] you and the nurse are. Yeah. That’s. Yeah. That’s your whole life. [00:26:10]
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Gone sour. Yeah. Your working life is sour now. Yeah. Doesn’t matter what happened [00:26:15] with the patient. You’ve got this and that can really get to someone can.
Aditi Bhalla: Affect you so much. And it’s [00:26:20] also putting on that, having to put on that mask every single day, having to be this [00:26:25] dentist persona.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. On show, on show.
Aditi Bhalla: Even when you are [00:26:30] outside, whether whether you’re a parent attending a, you know, your child’s school, you’re still the dentist, [00:26:35] you’re always having to wear this mask even when you know, for example, when I go back to India, [00:26:40] I actually anyone new, I don’t tell them what I do for a living because you’re like, well, oh, dentist, you [00:26:45] know, there’s suddenly this persona created about you and that’s what you’ve got to live up to. There’s so much pressure. [00:26:50] And as you said rightly, like, I feel like working with a nurse or even [00:26:55] with it’s like a marriage. Yeah. If it’s not working, if it’s toxic, you know, basically [00:27:00] you’re going to have the stress, you’re going to feel it. And you do spend a lot more time with your nurse [00:27:05] than you do with your with your partner, your husband, your wife. So it’s just so important to make, [00:27:10] you know, make take time and make that effort to have a good relationship with them [00:27:15] and just treat them. Just treat them how you want to be treated. Do you do you need their help? Well, [00:27:20] they need their help too. If you know if you’re running late, get up. Just help tidy up. It’s [00:27:25] not going to take a lot. They might do the same for you. They might, you know, type some notes. [00:27:30] They might support you in some way in the future. It’s not it’s I’m not saying it’s a give and take, but also [00:27:35] the give and take just automatically happens once you come at the same level. [00:27:40]
Payman Langroudi: I was so surprised that the nurses used to say to me that [00:27:45] not every dentist says thank you at the end. At the end of the day.
Aditi Bhalla: I find that surprising.
Payman Langroudi: End of the day. [00:27:50] Yeah. Thank you. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, I find that really surprising. Crazy, [00:27:55] man.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. Crazy. I’m really surprised about that. Really surprised. Maybe. Maybe that was back then. Maybe now things are a bit [00:28:00] more.
Aditi Bhalla: No, I feel now it’s the older nurses complain that the the [00:28:05] newer dentists are even, you know, they’re living a very different, different life. [00:28:10] They’re living a very uh, they come in and they just want to do the dentistry and leave, whereas [00:28:15] it’s all about the team. I think dentistry is team work. Yeah, you’ve got to involve your [00:28:20] team. You’ve got to meet them where they’re at and work as a team. Otherwise it’s not going to work for you. [00:28:25]
Payman Langroudi: Let’s go through some of the tools. Sure. So meditation. Let’s start with meditation. [00:28:30] In my limited knowledge of meditation, I’ll tell you what I’ve done in meditation. [00:28:35] Yeah, I’ve done a few guided meditations off my phone. Yeah. Where I felt like [00:28:40] I was meditating. Was in a in a tank. Do you know about those? A sensory deprivation [00:28:45] tank? Yeah. It’s basically, it’s completely dark. The water’s at body temperature. It’s salty. So you float [00:28:50] around in that tank. That one hour. And what did I get from it? [00:28:55] The notion that I am different to my body [00:29:00] and you know, my circumstance. There is an I outside of the [00:29:05] everyday. And the person breathing. That person. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. [00:29:10] It gave you that space to just be. Yeah. That’s what it sounds like. You just not have any [00:29:15] Responsibilities in that moment or any to do lists. It was just.
Payman Langroudi: And, [00:29:20] you know, in the tank. Yeah. Because all the reason I keep pointing to the tank is, is because [00:29:25] I’m sure someone who’s a proper meditator, who’s done it properly and studied it, gets to this state. I didn’t [00:29:30] know if I was upside down this way, around that way around it just just just just being. Yeah, [00:29:35] yeah. And why is it that that gives you space? Because [00:29:40] we don’t we’re not aware of that day to day. Is that right?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Because we’re [00:29:45] so connected to everything. Look at how many notifications that pop up on your screen.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah, I sleep with headphones [00:29:50] on.
Aditi Bhalla: You do?
Payman Langroudi: Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: So, you know, you’re connected and everyone [00:29:55] is just non-stop on the go. Just connected. Connected, connected. It’s too much connection [00:30:00] we don’t need we need a bit of isolation as well. We need a bit of connection with [00:30:05] ourselves. We’re connected outside, but we’re not connected.
Payman Langroudi: I’ve never got myself to this [00:30:10] level. But people who do do it well, they say, oh, then the problem comes along and you put the problem [00:30:15] in its place.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes.
Payman Langroudi: You see it? Yeah. You see what it is, and [00:30:20] you push it to its place. Is that. Is that correct? Is that what meditation does eventually? Because I haven’t [00:30:25] got that. Well.
Aditi Bhalla: Well that’s that’s that I would say that’s the pro level.
Payman Langroudi: Oh [00:30:30] really? Okay.
Aditi Bhalla: At the beginner level, you know, everyone says, oh, meditation [00:30:35] is all about emptying your mind, your thoughts. Uh, well, that’s not what it’s about. The [00:30:40] thoughts are going to come because that’s how your brains have developed. It’s all about observing [00:30:45] them. It’s it’s not about action, just observation. So if [00:30:50] suppose a thought comes. Uh oh. I’ve got to go to Tesco to buy milk. Okay, [00:30:55] but don’t now when you’re meditating, start to plan that. Oh, let me do [00:31:00] this at 3 p.m. tomorrow after work, because then you’ve disconnected with the whole [00:31:05] point of the exercise. So it’s about being here right now. Whatever [00:31:10] thoughts coming, whatever feelings are coming, whatever emotion. Just being. That’s. That’s all it’s all about. [00:31:15]
Payman Langroudi: And the living in the moment kind of power of now kind of stuff too, [00:31:20] right.
Aditi Bhalla: Power of now. And I think the reason we say that use your five senses because it gives people [00:31:25] something tangible that. Right. Okay. Now but what do I do in the now because we’re so used to doing. [00:31:30]
Payman Langroudi: Like feel the flow, feel the seat, the way of connecting to now.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes, yes. So how [00:31:35] do how do I do this. So just to make it more tangible, use your five senses. [00:31:40] You know, you know, as you said, you feel the feet, feel your chair, sense [00:31:45] the smells around you, connect to your breath.
Payman Langroudi: And so if I do want to get into [00:31:50] it, I don’t want to if I wanted to get into meditation, what should I do?
Aditi Bhalla: Well, as [00:31:55] you said, you already kind of doing it. You pick up the phone. Yeah, you can pick up. There are so many guided [00:32:00] meditations out there. Uh, you can pick up anyone. But the easiest meditation [00:32:05] to do for a beginner level is do a body scan. Yeah, you don’t even need to listen [00:32:10] to anything if you can just switch off your phone and just start to observe the feelings [00:32:15] that you’re having in every part of your body. So start from your toe moving systematically [00:32:20] upwards all to your head, and that should get you in that state of meditation. So [00:32:25] that’s the easiest way. Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Breathwork. We’ve had a breathwork coach on, on the other [00:32:30] podcast, and I found it very interesting that the exercises were lovely, [00:32:35] lovely, all I can. The best way I can describe it just felt great. Yeah. Tell [00:32:40] me more. Anything else about breathwork? I mean, is it why? When do I do breathwork? Is it a daily practice? [00:32:45] Is it something you do only when you’re in a situation? Or what do you do about what? Tell me about breathwork. [00:32:50]
Aditi Bhalla: So breathwork again nothing. Nothing complex. I like to make things very simple [00:32:55] and very like I want to get to it right now. You can do it anywhere and obviously [00:33:00] doing it once a day is amazing. But I don’t like to put structures in place. So [00:33:05] if you have time in the morning, do it in the morning. But certain practices practices are better in the morning, so did not [00:33:10] better in the evening. So you pick the time because it’s your practice. You can. [00:33:15] There are breathwork practices that you can do during the day as well. So say suppose [00:33:20] during the day you’re having a really stressful morning. You’re running late. The easiest breathwork [00:33:25] the easiest one is just see where you are breathing. Put one hand on your chest, one [00:33:30] on your belly and just see where you’re breathing. Because if you’re breathing in your chest, you’re kind of acting from a fight or flight [00:33:35] mode and your nervous system is dysregulated and you want to regulate it, breathe in [00:33:40] your belly. If you see an animal or your baby sleeping, where are they breathing? They’re [00:33:45] breathing in their bellies. When they’re breathing in their bellies, they’re very relaxed. And that’s where you want to [00:33:50] be working from as well. So the quickest one, just see where you’re breathing. Just check in on yourself.
Payman Langroudi: Okay. [00:33:55] But go on, give us 1 or 2, the next one. What’s the breathing [00:34:00] exercise? That makes sense.
Aditi Bhalla: Uh, after that, I would then do five nostril. [00:34:05] Uh, so I would close one nostril and then do five breaths in and out. From [00:34:10] my sources, I block my right nostril. I would do five breaths in and out from my left one, and I [00:34:15] would then block my left nostril and do the same from the right nostril. Breathe [00:34:20] in five. Breathe in.
Payman Langroudi: Breathe out.
Aditi Bhalla: Five times. Yeah, let’s do it.
Payman Langroudi: Is it a guided thing? [00:34:25] Is it? Does it help to be? It does, doesn’t it? It helps to be guided.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, it helps, but it doesn’t have [00:34:30] as I’ve explained, it doesn’t have to be guided. But yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Let’s do one. Let’s do one with [00:34:35] that one or any other one you want. Yeah. Okay.
Aditi Bhalla: So do you want to first check in with your breath.
Payman Langroudi: Where you’re at? I [00:34:40] was good with that.
Aditi Bhalla: I was are you in your belly. You’re nice and relaxed okay. Right. Okay. So let’s let’s [00:34:45] take our thumbs and let’s just close our eyes.
Payman Langroudi: Close one.
Aditi Bhalla: Nostril. Yeah. And let’s just. Yeah. Go [00:34:50] in.
Payman Langroudi: Eyes closed.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Eyes closed. And deep breath in your nose. [00:34:55] Right into your belly and out. And [00:35:00] same again. We’re going to do this five times a second time. Breathing [00:35:05] out. Breathing [00:35:10] in again. Breathing [00:35:15] out. Breathing in again. Breathing [00:35:20] out. And [00:35:25] one last time.
Aditi Bhalla: Breathing in. Breathing [00:35:30] out. And now. Gently. Just closing the other nostril [00:35:35] and relieving.
Payman Langroudi: I’ll do that. The listeners gonna go berserk. But [00:35:40] isn’t it so interesting just breathing, man. Yeah, just. Just breathing. [00:35:45] Yeah. What’s the story with the not so just somehow.
Aditi Bhalla: So it balances the flow.
Payman Langroudi: Uh, I [00:35:50] got one side working the other side.
Aditi Bhalla: Well, that’s the idea. You want to balance the flow on both sides. [00:35:55]
Payman Langroudi: So let’s imagine if I’m super stressed. Should I be doing two breaths in, one breath out or [00:36:00] the other way around if I’m super down on energy? How do I get up? Energy? Do I do two bets [00:36:05] in one. Something. Is there a technique.
Aditi Bhalla: For not just the breath? I think when you’re super stressed. My my easiest [00:36:10] way to come back to the here and now is literally shake your body. Literally shake it out [00:36:15] because you want to come back into your. Yeah, literally just shake, shake your hands. Shake your [00:36:20] legs, literally just shake it out.
Payman Langroudi: That brings me back.
Aditi Bhalla: To brings you back into your body. Because [00:36:25] when you’re stressed out, you’re disconnected. Your brain’s function is just to keep you safe, keep [00:36:30] your organs running. You want to come back in the here and now. And so for me, the [00:36:35] bodywork comes even before the breathwork. You want to first connect to your body. So [00:36:40] yeah, the easiest one. Just shake your body out and then check in with your breath.
Payman Langroudi: And [00:36:45] then what’s did I read ERP. Sorry ERP or something. [00:36:50] Something else. Did I get that wrong?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: What else? What else?
Aditi Bhalla: Fda.
Payman Langroudi: Fda FDA. [00:36:55] Yes.
Aditi Bhalla: Okay. So that’s tapping.
Payman Langroudi: Tapping.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, it’s called tapping. Uh, it’s based [00:37:00] on acupuncture. Yeah. Uh, so you’ve got these meridians. So in Chinese medicine [00:37:05] you’ve got these meridians. Energy. Energy. Yeah. Energy centres running. So like in, in in Hinduism [00:37:10] we’ve got chakras. Yeah. Whereas in Chinese we’ve got these meridians.
Payman Langroudi: And at the same place.
Aditi Bhalla: Uh, [00:37:15] slightly, slightly slightly. Yes. Uh, so when, [00:37:20] when the energy lines cross, they create something called as powerful energy centres. Those are your [00:37:25] acupuncture points. That’s when you go to see an acupuncturist. That’s where they inject [00:37:30] the needles. Whereas with tapping you can press on those points and [00:37:35] helps you relieve stress. And it’s known to work it yourself. [00:37:40] Yeah, you can do it for yourself. Once you learn the sequence you have, it’s the same sequence, same points, [00:37:45] but you say different words, uh, and by speaking and by tapping on [00:37:50] those points, it takes down your stress, takes down your anxiety. So yeah, that’s [00:37:55] that’s one technique as well.
Payman Langroudi: I saw crystal something about crystals.
Aditi Bhalla: Crystals.
Payman Langroudi: Talk [00:38:00] about that because I went I went to an Airbnb once in in, uh, Arizona. [00:38:05] Yeah. And it was Sedona. Do you know about Sedona is, like, very, like spiritual place? Yeah. And this Airbnb [00:38:10] had crystals everywhere, man. Like some giant ones. Little ones. Yeah. You [00:38:15] really believe that story, or is it? Do you think that’s more a [00:38:20] placebo story? Or. It doesn’t matter if. As long as it helps.
Aditi Bhalla: Well, crystals can do whatever [00:38:25] your body can do. Yeah. They don’t they don’t have super powers. They’re not going to suddenly give you [00:38:30] powers to fly or to, you know, whatever your body can do. They can enhance. Look, [00:38:35] they’re coming from. I do believe in them. They’re coming from Earth. Yeah. They’re bringing in. [00:38:40]
Payman Langroudi: Some energy.
Aditi Bhalla: Of some energies. Yeah, they can work with your own because you you as [00:38:45] a person are energy as well.
Payman Langroudi: What does that mean, man? I’ve heard that said [00:38:50] so many times. Is it to do what these energy centres that you’re talking about? Yeah. Okay. Is that what you mean by I [00:38:55] am energy for everything. I don’t get it. I don’t get that one. What does that mean?
Aditi Bhalla: For a very scientific [00:39:00] person. Let’s, let’s let’s break this down. When you walk into a room, you [00:39:05] when you’re around certain people, you would feel really happy. Yeah, right. Or sometimes you would [00:39:10] feel, oh, I don’t want to be in that situation. I don’t don’t want to be around that person. So what [00:39:15] is that? That’s energy. That’s energy. That’s their energy. Yeah, we all carry [00:39:20] it and we all have good energy and bad energy. And it’s, [00:39:25] you know, give given what our emotions are, what the situation is going on, we could be exuding that energy. [00:39:30] So that’s what I mean by that. Does that make sense now.
Payman Langroudi: It does make sense. It does [00:39:35] make sense. You seem to be very like very quickly, easily [00:39:40] able to answer these questions. Right.
Aditi Bhalla: It’s because I’ve been asked them [00:39:45] so many times, especially especially about the crystals, because, well, if you came [00:39:50] to my house, you would see them everywhere. Oh, really? My son now collects random stones from, [00:39:55] you know, anywhere, and everyone calls them magic stone. So it’s something I talk about very [00:40:00] openly. I used to kind of not, uh, but yeah, there would be in my water. There [00:40:05] would be under my pillow. There are really around me. Um.
Payman Langroudi: You know, [00:40:10] you know, like when you’re a dentist, you kind of need to know when to refer.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes.
Payman Langroudi: How [00:40:15] does that apply to your work? Is there a time where you think I got to refer this person?
Aditi Bhalla: Absolutely. [00:40:20]
Payman Langroudi: What? A psychiatrist or whatever it is.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: So how do you know that [00:40:25] when?
Aditi Bhalla: When there’s. Because I can’t prescribe any medication when I know for certain situations you might need some [00:40:30] medication you would refer, or sometimes they need group work, or they need family work [00:40:35] or they need I feel like there’s a type of therapy they might really, you know, get. Yeah. [00:40:40] Benefit from then I would, I would refer and I’ve got that network in place already. Uh, I [00:40:45] work from a therapy centre near where I live, and we’ve got all sorts of specialists [00:40:50] there. So we kind of refer internally to each other. Yeah, that. [00:40:55] Oh, I’ve got this client I think they would really benefit working from you.
Payman Langroudi: Why does group work [00:41:00] help some people? What situations does group work good for? I think addiction sort of stuff. [00:41:05]
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Yeah. But I think group work is good in all sort of situations because it brings you again to [00:41:10] that human level because, you know, evolutionary, we were never meant to live alone. We [00:41:15] always thrived in smaller communities. So I think group [00:41:20] work really brings that sense of community, that sense of that. I am not isolated in this problem. [00:41:25] I’ve got other people and it can be quite therapeutic knowing that there are others [00:41:30] with me struggling.
Payman Langroudi: In this area of people not forgiving [00:41:35] themselves and not not being kinder to themselves. So have [00:41:40] you. The unlock for that person tends to be different for each person, [00:41:45] I’m sure. Right. Yeah, but give me some stories. Like like what happens? [00:41:50] Does that person end up being this other person then? Do they end up being less organised and [00:41:55] less achieving and less ambitious.
Aditi Bhalla: If they forgive.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. Because, you know, [00:42:00] it’s like, you know, your biggest strength is your biggest weakness. Yeah. That idea. Yeah. You know, that’s something [00:42:05] that’s driving them so hard in the end. There’s, there’s, you know, it’s also burning them [00:42:10] out. Yeah. So but is there an opposite effect like okay, you end up being kinder to yourself, [00:42:15] but now you’re not so driven. Does that ever happen?
Aditi Bhalla: That is one of the biggest [00:42:20] fears.
Payman Langroudi: That’s what people fear, don’t they?
Aditi Bhalla: That is one of the biggest fears that comes up when we talk about compassion, [00:42:25] because you think that that’s going to make you weak. It’s going to make you all [00:42:30] wishy washy and, you know, not motivated at all. Yeah, but that’s not the truth. [00:42:35] Um, having being a compassionate person, you’ve got to have three elements to yourself. You’ve [00:42:40] got to have the courage to understand that there is an issue, there’s a problem. You’ve [00:42:45] got to have the wisdom, the awareness that, okay, this is going on. Um, [00:42:50] and then you’ve got to have this caring commitment that I want to resolve it. Yeah. [00:42:55] So, for example, when we think about compassionate leaders in the world, if we talked about Mother [00:43:00] Teresa, you wouldn’t say she is weak, unmotivated. [00:43:05] Was she was she? If we took the examples of example of a firefighter, they’re [00:43:10] compassionate. You know, they jump into the fire for somebody. And what does it take? [00:43:15] It takes wisdom, obviously, to understand the fire, to understand where the water is going to come. [00:43:20] It takes courage and it takes commitment to resolve that problem. And that’s why compassion [00:43:25] is so hard. But with practice, it can make you this motivated, [00:43:30] driven person. So I think that is one of the biggest fears that.
Payman Langroudi: I like, that I like that that [00:43:35] compassion is compatible with all these things.
Aditi Bhalla: Absolutely.
Payman Langroudi: But I think for [00:43:40] me, you know, the question I was talking before about peace and contentment and contentment, [00:43:45] especially in our part of the world, it’s almost seen as a weakness, whereas [00:43:50] really it should be the thing that you’re after the most. I’m content, I am content. [00:43:55] Yeah. And the interesting notion of why does contentment [00:44:00] have to be on the same string as ambition? Yeah. Like why? Why [00:44:05] is it if I’m content? I can’t be ambitious? If I’m ambitious, I can’t be content? Is it possible to sort of square [00:44:10] that circle?
Aditi Bhalla: Exactly. It just blows my mind away.
Payman Langroudi: But. But I really feel that way. I feel that [00:44:15] way. So how do I get over that?
Aditi Bhalla: How do you get over your contentment? [00:44:20]
Payman Langroudi: Yeah. What? I’m after contentment, for sure. Yeah. And yet a part of me is saying, once you’re content, [00:44:25] you haven’t got your ambitions gone. And by the way, by the way, ambition [00:44:30] can be gone. Doesn’t like ambitions. A young man’s sport. You know what? [00:44:35] What are your thoughts around that?
Aditi Bhalla: I think they can co-exist. Just like [00:44:40] lots of other things.
Payman Langroudi: How do I unlock the link between them? You know, like, I would love for them to co-exist, but [00:44:45] it feels like it’s a zero sum game. If you’re if you’re more content, you’re less ambitious. If you’re more ambitious, you’re less [00:44:50] content.
Aditi Bhalla: So I’ll give you my example. I feel very content with life right now, but that doesn’t [00:44:55] mean that I’m not ambitious. I’m equally very driven, very ambitious. I think.
Payman Langroudi: How did you how did [00:45:00] you unlock those two?
Aditi Bhalla: I think that the key to unlocking it is to ask your [00:45:05] why. Why? For the ambition that you’re going for and why? For the contentment as well. Why [00:45:10] do I feel content right now? I feel content because I have been doing things that I wanted that [00:45:15] that I have set out. But I feel ambitious because there’s still more I want to do. There’s still more I want [00:45:20] to achieve. And this contentment is actually driving my ambition [00:45:25] because I’m no longer working from fear. Yeah, I’m no longer working in fear that, oh [00:45:30] my God, I haven’t achieved, I haven’t done, I’ve achieved, I’ve done, you know, [00:45:35] and it comes with a lot of self-compassion that, okay, it’s been hard. I’ve done this, but [00:45:40] also I still want to do more. So I think the key to unlocking, again, I would say [00:45:45] self-compassion and saying, right, let this contentment be my fuel for [00:45:50] ambition.
Payman Langroudi: It’s interesting.
Aditi Bhalla: Let it not be.
Payman Langroudi: I like how simple. You keep everything. [00:45:55]
Aditi Bhalla: Life is hard. Life is hard as it is. We’ve been dealt [00:46:00] with things that we’ve got to deal with. So, you know we can’t make the tools [00:46:05] for our help. Self-help difficult. We’ve got to make it easy, simple, [00:46:10] accessible and sustainable. Otherwise, we’re not going to do it. We’re just going to be.
Payman Langroudi: You do? You do [00:46:15] look.
Payman Langroudi: Happy right now. Yeah, but I’m sure there was very dark days when [00:46:20] your wrist started giving out. Yeah. Tell me about that. Tell me.
Aditi Bhalla: I woke [00:46:25] up one morning and my thumb was numb. I couldn’t feel.
Payman Langroudi: The blue.
Aditi Bhalla: Out of the [00:46:30] blue. Just woke up. I’m sure I ignored the pain for a little while. And, like. Like you do, uh. [00:46:35] And I woke up, and I was just. It was numb, and I. I really freaked out. [00:46:40] Uh, luckily, I have a very good, uh, orthopaedic friend. I gave him [00:46:45] a call, and I said, look, my thumb is numb, I cannot work. And I need [00:46:50] your help. I need you to see me today. Uh. And he did. And we had [00:46:55] some, you know, MRIs and scans. And then I was diagnosed with dequervain’s. Tenosynovitis, [00:47:00] um, and which is, which is basically your, um, [00:47:05] it’s your it’s not, it’s it’s it’s a tendon disease. It’s not [00:47:10] a tenosynovitis. It’s basically a tendon disease. It gets inflamed and it presses [00:47:15] against the nerves. And that’s where you get numbness and less mobility. And it [00:47:20] mainly happens when new mothers. But I didn’t have I didn’t have a baby at the time. [00:47:25] So it was because of repetitive movements.
Payman Langroudi: Oh really? Yeah, really. Dentistry was the.
Aditi Bhalla: Cause. [00:47:30] Was the dentistry. Yeah. But also stress. Yeah, that aggravated the whole thing because your [00:47:35] body has a way of speaking.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: That’s right. And yeah. So it was repetitive movements [00:47:40] that caused it.
Payman Langroudi: How hard were you.
Payman Langroudi: Working as a dentist at that point?
Aditi Bhalla: I was working six days a week at [00:47:45] the time. I was, yeah, working long hours. And also I was driving all the [00:47:50] way. I was working in different practices. I was working in deal, I was working in Essex, and [00:47:55] then I was also lecturing at the time. So I was all over. I was literally I was hustling.
Payman Langroudi: And a [00:48:00] kid.
Aditi Bhalla: Well, the kid came after and then I had my second flare up of Dequervain’s, [00:48:05] and that’s when surgery was the only option I had. And I didn’t want to necessarily [00:48:10] go for it because of the recovery and the risks. Um, and that’s when [00:48:15] I decided to pause.
Payman Langroudi: And are they confident that pausing will [00:48:20] mean it’ll be okay again?
Aditi Bhalla: I feel I feel very good now. The pain has sort of gone [00:48:25] away. It’s not to say that it wouldn’t come back, but I’ve just got to manage it mindfully. [00:48:30] So if I do choose to go back, uh, it’ll have to be part time and I’ll have [00:48:35] to sort of just keep an eye on things. Uh, yeah. That’s that’s the.
Payman Langroudi: Only I found. [00:48:40] Only when I stopped practising did I really identify what I loved about [00:48:45] being a dentist. Yeah. So now that you’ve stopped. Yeah. What’s the thing [00:48:50] that you used to love about being a dentist?
Aditi Bhalla: Talking to my [00:48:55] older patients. Because I used to love doing dentures. They were my absolute favourite. [00:49:00] And the stories they had to tell you. You know, if you just took out a little bit of your [00:49:05] time just to speak to them, it’s that connection. Yeah. I used to love that. I used to absolutely [00:49:10] love that. Um, yeah.
Payman Langroudi: How interesting. But as, like, as a specialist, [00:49:15] you didn’t even, like, say something clinical? No. That [00:49:20] was the same, by the way. The conversations. The conversations? Definitely.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, the conversations for sure. [00:49:25] Yeah. And. Yeah. Do. Yeah. Doing dentures, which nobody likes to do. I used to love doing [00:49:30] dentures. Um, yeah.
Payman Langroudi: It’s funny because dentists teach you a lot about [00:49:35] occlusion even. Yeah. Let alone we used to have one guy, uh, professor who was an older [00:49:40] guy. Yeah. I’m sure he’s not with us anymore, but he used to say, you can’t [00:49:45] have attention is too tight. Yeah, like a full denture. Yeah. Yeah, like too tight. It’s a ridiculous [00:49:50] thing for a patient to say. It’s too tight. Yeah. And so I used to be [00:49:55] his housemate, his junior. And if a patient ever said that he would take the denture, I said, no [00:50:00] problem. I’m going to stretch the denture for you. And he’d say, come on, let’s go. And we’d go into his office and we’d just stand there [00:50:05] for 45 seconds. Yeah. And then come back and he’d stick it back [00:50:10] in the patient’s mouth. Oh, that’s much better. Much better.
Aditi Bhalla: You know, older [00:50:15] people are like babies. They’re literally like kids. And you’ve just got to, you know, deal with [00:50:20] them a little bit of give them a bit of TLC. But yeah, I used to love working with the older people [00:50:25] and the stories they had to tell, the wisdom that they brought. Definitely. Yeah. [00:50:30]
Payman Langroudi: What’s your view on placebo? You know, in all this work that you’re doing, do you [00:50:35] account for placebo? Do you think do you think it’s a bigger thing than you thought before [00:50:40] or, you know, like, almost like just now. You told me to cover one nostril and breathe. [00:50:45] Yeah. And I felt better, I felt better. I just breathe, that’s all I did. Yeah, well, tell me about [00:50:50] placebo. What? What do you think about it?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, I think I think there is always an element [00:50:55] of placebo. Uh, there’s there’s been studies.
Payman Langroudi: There’s it somewhat like, you know, is [00:51:00] that part of what you’re doing?
Aditi Bhalla: Uh, I think the willingness of [00:51:05] wanting to do something about your problem is more where I, you know, where I sort of [00:51:10] offer support with the placebo. Sort of comes in, comes in on its own. It’s not something [00:51:15] I would say, oh, I am doing this for the placebo effect, but I do believe in it. I think it [00:51:20] it exists. There’s numerous studies and books written about it. Uh, if [00:51:25] you think it, you can heal it. You know, it does work. It does. It’s [00:51:30] not to say that that’s the work that I am doing. Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: What was your darkest [00:51:35] day? Was it around the illness?
Aditi Bhalla: It was definitely around the illness when, uh, the [00:51:40] my second round of sorry when my second round of the injections [00:51:45] didn’t work and I was just told that, well, there is no other option, you’re [00:51:50] just going to have to have surgery. I think that was a really dark day because I thought [00:51:55] that I’ve done so much training. I’ve done so much study.
Payman Langroudi: This nightmare, isn’t it? Every dentist has [00:52:00] that little thing in the back of their head. What if something happens to my hands, my arm, I can’t [00:52:05] work. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: So it it kind of broke me. But [00:52:10] then I was also reminded very lovingly by my husband that I’ve got so many other skills that I could put [00:52:15] to use.
Payman Langroudi: And by the way, did you have insurance of some sort?
Aditi Bhalla: I didn’t, I was I [00:52:20] was not smart enough at the time. Uh, however, my husband now has some [00:52:25] because obviously we’ve experienced it, but I wish I did, and that’s something I [00:52:30] do recommend. Uh, everybody, um, I didn’t have any insurance. [00:52:35] Uh, and I think another dark time would be along along with the Deco rings. Flare [00:52:40] up was I had hyperemesis when I was pregnant and that was just so hard. [00:52:45] It was almost like my wrists were giving up. My body was failing me. Almost. [00:52:50] Yeah, it really took me to a dark place.
Payman Langroudi: As a young person, it’s difficult, you know, it’s a difficult thing. [00:52:55] What about kids? I mean, kids, I find, you know, you know, one [00:53:00] of the biggest problems, one of the biggest issues that you’re having to treat, basically, is people who [00:53:05] want it all. And I don’t know, how do you feel around that? Because [00:53:10] for me, wanting it all is a bit selfish, a bit a bit much. Yeah. Insomuch as it [00:53:15] depends what all is. Right. Yeah. But when, when kids come along, they, [00:53:20] they, they start wanting it all and, and I think it comes down to this [00:53:25] notion of something’s got to give. Right. And what is the thing that gives [00:53:30] when I ask. And it’s mothers. It’s mothers. Yeah. Because they’re trying to do their kids, do [00:53:35] their careers. Do their husbands. Do you know. Yeah. What is it that gives most [00:53:40] of them say my own health. Mhm. Sometimes the relationship. Yeah. [00:53:45] Because the kind of people they are that are going to the kids not going to give works, not going to give. [00:53:50] So the only things that can give are the things that, you know, you think you can get away with. Mhm. What [00:53:55] are your thoughts around that. I mean what’s having a kid done to that part of you. We’ll get [00:54:00] to other parts. But that part of you.
Aditi Bhalla: I think when, when it started it was [00:54:05] definitely me. Like I had to sort of I ignored my own needs because [00:54:10] obviously taking care of the needs of this little one was just everything to me. And doing it right again, [00:54:15] that perfectionism in that as well was showing through. So in the beginning, it was definitely [00:54:20] that. However, with the work that I’ve done with myself, it’s kind of become like [00:54:25] having that understanding that no one day is going to be 100% mother or 100% [00:54:30] work or, you know, it’s finding that own sweet.
Payman Langroudi: Of course, you’re now really good at it, right? You’re really good. [00:54:35]
Aditi Bhalla: So yeah, in the beginning it was definitely [00:54:40] sort of giving my all to my little one and [00:54:45] my work as well. And I was also studying at the time. So it was, it was, it was, yeah. [00:54:50] Madness.
Payman Langroudi: But that’s a common issue, right, where people think, you know, I find funny. [00:54:55] People say something like, I always thought by this time I would be something. [00:55:00] Yes, I go why? I was like, why is that even a problem? Why is that a thing? So [00:55:05] you always thought, you know what I mean? Like, I always thought by 30 I would be married and have a practice, all right? [00:55:10] You didn’t. So what? Yeah, exactly.
Aditi Bhalla: So what have you have you have you died? Are you still here? [00:55:15] You can do this now. You know, I recently met someone who, at the age of 60, [00:55:20] is now doing a cooking show, who has written a cookbook. You know, it’s possible at any age. I [00:55:25] think this is just a societal thing where you’re just, you know, set out these timelines [00:55:30] which must fit everybody. Whereas, no, you’re here having your own journey. So you’ve got to [00:55:35] make your own timeline. You know, it’s not the same for everybody.
Payman Langroudi: Do you have a coach? [00:55:40]
Aditi Bhalla: Yes.
Payman Langroudi: And a therapist?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. Oh, yes. Really? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, [00:55:45] absolutely. And I don’t think I could.
Payman Langroudi: Important thing that for you to.
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. So as professionally as well, [00:55:50] you’ve got to be in therapy. Uh, because, uh, certain clients will bring certain things. They might [00:55:55] trigger something in you. So you’ve got to have, uh. It’s called supervision.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: So you are [00:56:00] okay to take care of your clients. Which is funny enough. We don’t have that in dentistry, because [00:56:05] you need to have a mentor to make sure that everything’s going right. So, yes, I’ve got a coach. I’ve got [00:56:10] a therapist. Uh, it’s not only, uh, a professional requirement, but I feel [00:56:15] a personal one as well. It’s just so nice to have someone that non-judgmental space where you can [00:56:20] talk about your problems, but also talk about the solutions, the growth, and what you can take away [00:56:25] from there.
Payman Langroudi: And if I don’t want to, I don’t want to be reductive about it. Yeah, but let’s just talk about the business [00:56:30] of coaching. Yes. Do you recognise something around, like how good it [00:56:35] is to be a dentist. Now that you’re in another business, you know, like, [00:56:40] for instance, when we started enlighten. Yeah. I realised [00:56:45] very early on that dentistry was a lot better than I realised it was. [00:56:50] You know, because products selling to dentists so much harder than [00:56:55] selling to patients. Yeah. And just the dynamic, the trust dynamics of a dental [00:57:00] chair, the fact that, I mean, you know, it goes back every six months. Yeah. [00:57:05] Pays you money every six months to check in on you again, like for a check-up. No [00:57:10] other industry has that. No.
Aditi Bhalla: Absolutely.
Payman Langroudi: So? So give me your reflections [00:57:15] around, like, for me, when I started enlighten, it really made me appreciate [00:57:20] what it is to be a dentist. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. I think grass is always greener on the other side. So when [00:57:25] you’re a dentist, you’re just constantly focussed on what’s going wrong and not appreciating [00:57:30] enough what is actually, you’re not taking the time out to reflect on what is actually working, you know? So [00:57:35] I think as a as a, as a psychotherapist, I’ve definitely realised, uh, [00:57:40] the financial aspect of it, uh, therapists work so hard and they [00:57:45] work with you on a personal level.
Payman Langroudi: Is it as tiring as being a dentist? More tiring. How [00:57:50] would you look at it?
Aditi Bhalla: Well, it doesn’t affect you physically in the sense that you’re not bending over someone’s mouth, but. [00:57:55] But yeah, just, you know, sitting in front of someone again, I’m going to talk about energy, you know, in that energy [00:58:00] of, you know, resolving and solving problems and offering support and help, it can be quite [00:58:05] draining.
Payman Langroudi: Are all your sessions face to face or do you do online?
Aditi Bhalla: They’re a blend. So they would be [00:58:10] face depending on where the client is. So if they’re local and they prefer coming in person [00:58:15] then it would be face to face or it could be online as well.
Payman Langroudi: Do you mind me asking [00:58:20] how much it costs?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. So per hour it’s £65 an hour, which [00:58:25] is nothing compared to what a dentist gets paid. So. But it brings me joy. [00:58:30] And I think that’s my why. And that’s what you’ve got to keep coming back to. And [00:58:35] that’s what I do. Um, it’s hard work. I definitely don’t deny it, but it [00:58:40] offers me what I need right now for my life. Uh, and that’s something I keep coming [00:58:45] back to. And I never say never about dentistry. Uh, I may go back to it. [00:58:50]
Payman Langroudi: Or you may not.
Aditi Bhalla: Or may not, I. I think I’ve stopped making plans that are set [00:58:55] in stone and I’ve gone more like, right, I’m going to flow in whichever direction I need to flow [00:59:00] and I’m going to make it work. That’s the attitude. Whereas before it was just like this [00:59:05] goal, this goal, this goal, achieve, achieve, achieve, achieve. Now I’m just like, let’s [00:59:10] just flow with it, let’s go with it and let’s make life work for you.
Payman Langroudi: What’s [00:59:15] the thing you’re struggling with the most at the moment?
Aditi Bhalla: Getting people [00:59:20] to understand what I’m doing, because there can be a little bit of a conflict in the sense, oh, you’re [00:59:25] a dentist. There’s always this question like.
Payman Langroudi: Sorry, So.
Aditi Bhalla: There’s [00:59:30] always your dentist. But then they suddenly want to know the backstory. But why did you leave? And you know, why [00:59:35] are you doing this work? So I think that’s something, uh.
Payman Langroudi: It’s difficult to understand because this is [00:59:40] the spiritual thing. It’s difficult to. Yes, it’s the point of it is it’s difficult to understand. [00:59:45] But. Yeah. Um, I can see why people think the same thing. I [00:59:50] was thinking, what’s going on here?
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, but the thing is that I don’t shy [00:59:55] away from talking. Talking about it. I’m very open. Uh, and I talk about [01:00:00] everything because I do feel that traditional therapy works only to a certain [01:00:05] degree. There has to be something beyond. And a lot of my clients have had traditional [01:00:10] therapy and they’ve said it doesn’t work. It didn’t work for them. And when they start to work [01:00:15] in other ways, it really helps them a lot. I’ve seen a lot of change. [01:00:20]
Payman Langroudi: I’ve never had traditional therapy, but my understanding of it is that the relationship between the [01:00:25] therapist and the client is really key. Yes, but finding the right therapist for you? Yeah. [01:00:30] Do you. Have you found that a dentist, dentist, dentist relationship with [01:00:35] a therapist is important because, you know, you really get exactly [01:00:40] what. What’s going on? Yeah, with a dentist. Yeah.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, definitely. [01:00:45]
Payman Langroudi: It must be right.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. I mean, they see that. Oh. I’ve been I understand yourself. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I [01:00:50] understand the struggles already, so they don’t actually have to break it down and make me understand the system because I already [01:00:55] understand it. So, you know, they’re sort of like saving their time and energy saying, oh, we don’t have to. [01:01:00] You understand what it’s like. You understand what the NHS is. You understand what you know. When I say, you know [01:01:05] this, this is the trouble I’m having with my nurse. You understand the dynamics and all of it. So it definitely [01:01:10] is an advantage.
Payman Langroudi: That’s super interesting.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, it’s definitely an advantage and even [01:01:15] you would be surprised. But even like in banking and stuff they struggle with similar things. The hierarchy, [01:01:20] the the stress, the ticking boxes, you know, all of those things. [01:01:25] So they kind of say, oh, you’ve, you’ve been there, you’ve you’ve hustled so you understand. You [01:01:30] understand what it’s like. So yeah, it definitely gives me an advantage.
Payman Langroudi: Are you religious? [01:01:35]
Aditi Bhalla: No, no I’m not. However, I don’t I [01:01:40] don’t shut it down in the sense that I’m not against it or anything, but I’m not [01:01:45] super religious. My family is, my husband’s family is. And I participate in [01:01:50] everything, uh, all the all the ceremonies and everything. I celebrate all the festivals. [01:01:55] Uh, but I come from it. Come to it from a very spiritual perspective. I [01:02:00] try to see the good in those things, and I celebrate it.
Payman Langroudi: Are you a [01:02:05] Hindu?
Aditi Bhalla: I am.
Payman Langroudi: So we were talking about this before. In a way, spirituality can be kind of kind [01:02:10] of religion. Kind of. But with your own rules. Yeah. Rather than the religion’s rules?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. [01:02:15]
Payman Langroudi: No, it’s nicer in a way. Definitely.
Aditi Bhalla: Because there’s no structure. There’s no you can’t [01:02:20] do this. And you only you can only do this on a certain day. And there’s, you know, there’s no structure. There’s [01:02:25] no you are free to be a good person. You’re free to, you know, do all the nice things. [01:02:30] So I say take all the positives from the religion and put it into spirituality. That’s [01:02:35] that’s what it is. Yeah. And I love that because it gives me the freedom. I was never a person [01:02:40] who could be put down into this, this rules. And, you know, this [01:02:45] box I always I was always this person who questioned that doesn’t sit right with religious [01:02:50] people. They get very cross when you start to ask them, why do I have to do this? Or why do you know, why are [01:02:55] we doing this? Um, so spirituality works for me, makes me [01:03:00] happy.
Payman Langroudi: Have you ever listened to an episode of this podcast before?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes.
Payman Langroudi: So we like [01:03:05] to talk about mistakes.
Aditi Bhalla: Okay.
Payman Langroudi: What comes to mind if we want [01:03:10] to listen to a mistake that you’ve made and something that we can all learn from, [01:03:15] we like generally go clinical mistakes. I’m happy to start there if you want.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, I think it [01:03:20] was a very I just come to this country. And you know, I am seeing one of my [01:03:25] maybe first few patients at university. Um, and I see this white [01:03:30] guy who’s not very happy that I’m his, uh, dentist. Uh, so he’s made [01:03:35] me really anxious, and I cut his lip.
Payman Langroudi: Oh.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. The worst thing I could have [01:03:40] ever done. And the bleeding just would not stop.
Payman Langroudi: So a deep cut.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, yeah, yeah, [01:03:45] it was quite a deep cut, so my professor had to come through. Obviously, the patient was quite anxious, so [01:03:50] I.
Payman Langroudi: Did have to stitch it.
Aditi Bhalla: No, luckily we didn’t. We just had to apply [01:03:55] pressure and just be with it. Just be patient. But I think when the mistake in that [01:04:00] is not obviously the cut and lift one is the obvious one, but for me is to have that faith [01:04:05] in myself. I didn’t trust my abilities. I was I was influenced by what you know, how the patient [01:04:10] made me feel.
Payman Langroudi: Oh, you think it happened because of the way he made?
Aditi Bhalla: Definitely. I’d [01:04:15] never had I had never done that before. So it was kind of like the emotional side [01:04:20] of it is what got to me. And I lost my concentration. So being really [01:04:25] present in the moment when you’re doing, you know, a complex treatment because, yeah, some people can make you [01:04:30] feel a certain way. But you know, you’ve got to keep your emotions in check.
Payman Langroudi: That was bad energy. [01:04:35]
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Bad energy. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But I didn’t understand energy at the time. Yeah. [01:04:40] So I think that that kind of stuck with me. Um, yeah. [01:04:45] So I think that’s one clinical mistake that’s really, really.
Payman Langroudi: Any others?
Aditi Bhalla: Any [01:04:50] other clinical mistake. Oh.
Payman Langroudi: Well. Most difficult patient.
Aditi Bhalla: Most [01:04:55] difficult patient. Wow. I’ve had a few. I think [01:05:00] the first one that comes to mind is, uh, I was doing [01:05:05] an obturator for someone, and. Yeah. Just just really mean. [01:05:10] Mean? It was just really mean to me. Just did not like anything [01:05:15] that I did. But if it was, uh, a male colleague who came and did exactly the [01:05:20] same thing, he would be happy. So yeah, that’s something you’ve got. You’ve got [01:05:25] to face. And then another time I think.
Payman Langroudi: Isn’t it after cancer bits stuck on [01:05:30] a denture.
Aditi Bhalla: To to block block. Yeah. Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Well yeah. You [01:05:35] just mean he was just.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. He was just not happy. I was just not inserting [01:05:40] the trays correctly. I was just. Yeah. Not getting the shade right. Just nothing. Nothing was right. [01:05:45]
Payman Langroudi: So eventually reflecting what can we learn from that?
Aditi Bhalla: What can we learn from [01:05:50] that is have a conversation. Have a conversation that how can I how can I make this better? What [01:05:55] are your needs? You know, having that real, raw, honest conversation because I was afraid [01:06:00] to have that. I was afraid what was.
Payman Langroudi: Going to have that?
Aditi Bhalla: I didn’t have that conversation. And I should have that, you [01:06:05] know. Yeah, definitely. I wish I had had that conversation, but I just ended up saying, I think you would [01:06:10] be more comfortable with my male colleagues. And of course, in some situations you’ve got to.
Payman Langroudi: You know, it was a man woman [01:06:15] thing.
Aditi Bhalla: I don’t know, maybe because I always asked for a man to come and help me. He was the only [01:06:20] other one willing to take on the patient. Nobody else was there, [01:06:25] so I don’t think it was a woman or man thing. It was just maybe he preferred his hands over mine. [01:06:30] Uh, but yeah, I think having that raw and honest conversation with [01:06:35] the patient.
Payman Langroudi: Um, what about in this work? I mean, I don’t want to characterise it as a mistake, [01:06:40] but but some something where you thought maybe it was just a regular thing and it was a [01:06:45] much deeper problem than you thought. Does that happen ever?
Aditi Bhalla: When I started, I thought [01:06:50] I could heal everybody. Fix everybody. You know that. Oh, I’m going to be this amazing. Yeah, yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Yeah, yeah. [01:06:55]
Aditi Bhalla: And then you get this client who is who’s just there to just rant [01:07:00] and do nothing. They don’t want to work on solving their problems. They don’t want to take any actions. You know, they don’t [01:07:05] want to take any of the tools you offer them. They just want to come and spend time talking, talking, [01:07:10] just crying about the same thing for how many ever weeks. And that really, [01:07:15] really was hard for me because I was in that mode that I’m going to fix [01:07:20] everybody’s problems, and that was a big learning curve. Big mistake. I took it back to my own [01:07:25] supervision session and I said, look, this person is not doing anything that I’m asking them. They’re [01:07:30] not taking on any of the tools that I’m offering them. And that’s when I realised, well, that’s because what [01:07:35] some people need is just a space to talk. And that’s what you’re there. You’re just there to hold the space. Yeah. [01:07:40] You know, you’re not there to facilitate healing. You’re there to offer that space, that non-judgmental space. [01:07:45] Um, so I think that was one of my biggest learnings in this work, [01:07:50] that I’m just there to hold the space and facilitate.
Payman Langroudi: Interesting. Isn’t it, like experience? What? [01:07:55] What, like if you say, oh, yeah, she’s an experienced prosthodontist. [01:08:00] Yeah. What does it even mean? It means you’ve come across situations that that you didn’t [01:08:05] know what to do, or you’ve made mistakes and and in this world now, now you’ve got the [01:08:10] experience of this ranter type. Yeah. Increase your hourly rate. Yeah. Increase. [01:08:15] And listen. Sit back and just listen.
Aditi Bhalla: You’ve not got to. You’re not there to solve everyone’s [01:08:20] problems. But I think nobody talks about their mistakes. Uh, [01:08:25] when you look at Instagram, when you look at nobody talks.
Payman Langroudi: About in medical and dental, we definitely [01:08:30] don’t. Right. And well, it’s that black box thinking, right where it’s blame is the problem [01:08:35] we’re running away from. Yeah. Um, but it is helpful. But the funny thing about it is I’ve, I’ve drilled [01:08:40] the wrong side. Yeah. Lower right seven instead of lower left. Yeah. Drilled and drilled and [01:08:45] drilled. I keep saying to the patient I can’t find it. It’s so obvious on the x ray. I can’t find it, I can’t find it. [01:08:50] And I realised oh it was the nurse back then. Right and left. They used to write on the, on [01:08:55] the, on the OPG and she’d got it wrong the wrong way round or whatever, whatever it was. Yeah. [01:09:00] And then since that happened I would check 15 times before. [01:09:05] Yeah. So because you’ve made the mistake yourself, you learn from it. But [01:09:10] someone else’s mistake, somehow you don’t learn quite as much, but it’s [01:09:15] an interesting thing. Not that we hear each other’s mistakes because we’re all, like, so perfect on Instagram. [01:09:20] Like you said.
Aditi Bhalla: We’re just like these, you know? Perfect. Every perfect everywhere. We’ve just [01:09:25] got. It’s just too much. It’s exhausting. We’ve got to start talking more about our mistakes, about, [01:09:30] you know, what I did wrong, even if it’s in smaller groups. Just talk about it because, yeah, you don’t [01:09:35] learn as much, but it makes you feel like, oh, I’m not the only one. Yeah, I’m not the only one making [01:09:40] mistakes because there’s others as well. We’re human. We’re going to make mistakes.
Payman Langroudi: Do you get people? There must be [01:09:45] now. There must be people with like, severe anxiety about GDC and being sued. [01:09:50] And that’s probably the pandemic of its own, right? Yes. Does that come up a lot in your sessions?
Aditi Bhalla: Yes [01:09:55] it does. Uh, they might have had a complaint. They’re having sleepless nights, they’re having anxiety. And then you [01:10:00] sort of kind of unravel. And most of the times it’s the anxiety has started from something, [01:10:05] you know, long, long ago. And it’s sort of carried on. But yeah, fear of [01:10:10] I think the most common thing, fear of being struck off and also [01:10:15] fear of being found out that I have made this mistake. And, you know, people are going to judge [01:10:20] me, then they’re not going to think I’m a good dentist. They’re not going to think I know what I’m [01:10:25] talking about. And I think that’s a huge fear that comes up a lot in the session. [01:10:30] It’s it’s really sad because operating from a space of fear is, again, [01:10:35] stress in itself. Yeah. And you’re going to make more mistakes when you operate from that, [01:10:40] that space.
Payman Langroudi: And I mean, do people have access to you outside of the [01:10:45] sessions as well?
Aditi Bhalla: So I don’t offer emergency access. [01:10:50] So if there’s a crisis, yeah, if there’s a crisis point, I always say I always [01:10:55] give them numbers of helplines and I always give them that space. [01:11:00] However, they are open to message me or email me, and if I can offer support, I always will. [01:11:05] Uh, however, that’s not something that I offer because I know there are other, other [01:11:10] ways to get the crisis support. Yeah, but we always suss out that, oh, is there is there [01:11:15] a crisis need here. And then you would refer accordingly. Yeah. [01:11:20]
Payman Langroudi: What does the future hold?
Aditi Bhalla: Oh, the future is very exciting. It just feels [01:11:25] exciting. As I said, it’s not set in stone. I am still going with it. [01:11:30] Um, the two avenues that I’m really working on is the compassion [01:11:35] focussed dentistry and the Dental Wellbeing Hub. I feel like they’re my babies and I’m really excited [01:11:40] to.
Payman Langroudi: What’s it going? Tell me about the hub.
Aditi Bhalla: So the hub is a space that I’ve created, [01:11:45] uh, not for crisis points, but for points before. So how [01:11:50] can we prevent the crisis situation? The burnout. So the hub is a space where you come to [01:11:55] for preventative wellbeing to.
Payman Langroudi: Physically.
Aditi Bhalla: Right now, virtually right now virtually. [01:12:00] So I can reach anybody in, in the UK. Um, [01:12:05] but the hope is eventually it would also mean coming down in person. It’s [01:12:10] only started.
Payman Langroudi: Just like a website.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. So right now it’s just a Facebook group and the website is coming [01:12:15] up. It’s only been three months since it started. Uh, it was an idea that was long [01:12:20] in my head, and I thought it was the time that it comes. It comes into the world. [01:12:25] And. Yeah. So it’s a space I’ve created where I can offer these wellbeing tools. And [01:12:30] so they act as your preventative measure and you sort of, you know, you [01:12:35] think of a medical emergency kit bag. Right. Whereas I’m saying create a wellbeing kit [01:12:40] bag for yourself. Have all the tools ready and use them as in when use them regularly. [01:12:45] Use them in in times of stress anxiety so you don’t reach that burnout point. [01:12:50] And that’s what the Wellbeing Hub is all about.
Payman Langroudi: I quite like the idea of, you know, like optimisation [01:12:55] being on the same sort of path as this. Yeah. [01:13:00] You know, like it’s, it makes the whole thing much more interesting that you’ve got some executive who’s [01:13:05] super optimised. Yeah, that’s just the very end of this line of people [01:13:10] who are now sad and depressed and lonely and anxiety, all the all the things, you know, are [01:13:15] you looking at that as well? Sort of optimising people. It’s kind of on the same area. It doesn’t have to. [01:13:20] It doesn’t have to be problem focussed. You know, it could be. No tools. Tools. Focus. [01:13:25]
Aditi Bhalla: Yes. So I think I’m looking more at, you know, planting the seeds early, as early as [01:13:30] possible. If it gets to university level, that’s that’s where we want to get to at. Um, [01:13:35] so yeah, optimising sounds very, uh.
Payman Langroudi: Very aspirational. [01:13:40]
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Well. Well, more like. Oh, there’s it sounds a little bit stressful [01:13:45] as well. I think, you know, like, oh you’ve got to optimise the function, you.
Payman Langroudi: Know, back to [01:13:50] the self.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah. Yeah. It’s almost like I, I want to make it sound that it’s it’s sustainable. [01:13:55] It’s easy, it’s accessible. And you can do this because everything in life is so hard. Even [01:14:00] when we look at, you know, some of the skincare routines like ten steps, I don’t have time to do ten steps. [01:14:05] You know, I’m lucky if my toddler lets me wash my face. So that’s [01:14:10] where I’m getting at. I’m getting real that we we all are busy. So how can I [01:14:15] fit in few moments of calm within my busy life? Yeah. Um. And that’s [01:14:20] where I am getting at, so I so I think maybe optimise in an easy way.
Payman Langroudi: Sure.
Aditi Bhalla: That [01:14:25] makes sense.
Payman Langroudi: It’s a bit I really I really like your energy, by the way, that you’ve taught me. Now that you’ve taught [01:14:30] me that.
Aditi Bhalla: I’m glad we’re talking about energy here.
Payman Langroudi: We [01:14:35] tend to end it on the same questions. Yeah. Fantasy dinner party. Oh, [01:14:40] three guests, dead or alive? Mhm. Who are you thinking you want [01:14:45] to have dinner with?
Aditi Bhalla: Okay. So I [01:14:50] would say dead and it sounds a little bit emotional but it’s not. Uh, I would say [01:14:55] my mom’s mom, my mom’s dad and my best friend from university, [01:15:00] all three are no more. And I really want to bring them here. And I just want to have this honest a short conversation [01:15:05] about life with them. And also. Yeah, just tell them everything is good. [01:15:10]
Payman Langroudi: What happened to your best friend?
Aditi Bhalla: He had cancer. Unfortunately, he was the topper of of [01:15:15] the class and did really well. But yeah, immediately after finishing dental school, he was diagnosed [01:15:20] and within six months he was gone.
Payman Langroudi: Oh my goodness.
Aditi Bhalla: So yeah, I really want to bring him back and say [01:15:25] life is good. It’s amazing. All of the support and the love you offered me during university [01:15:30] has been amazing. So yeah, bring them back.
Payman Langroudi: And your grandparents. How [01:15:35] old were you when I was really young.
Aditi Bhalla: I was my gran, my granddad. I was, [01:15:40] um, I was 15, so I was older then. [01:15:45] But with my grandmom, I was six. Yeah. So I was, I was, but I remember [01:15:50] having such beautiful memories during the summer time with them. And I think I just wanted. [01:15:55]
Payman Langroudi: To look after you or something.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah, they did, they did. And they were very, um, they were very [01:16:00] motivating. They were very much like, you know, they were always cheering for me.
Payman Langroudi: There’s [01:16:05] something about that grandparent that’s different. They’re different.
Aditi Bhalla: When I look at my.
Payman Langroudi: Mom now. [01:16:10]
Aditi Bhalla: It’s like, what happened? What happened? What happened to you? [01:16:15]
Payman Langroudi: That’s funny. Amazing. And the final one is a deathbed [01:16:20] question. Oh.
Aditi Bhalla: Yeah.
Payman Langroudi: Three pieces of advice for your loved [01:16:25] ones. For the world on your deathbed.
Aditi Bhalla: So I would say I’m not. I’m not saving any advice [01:16:30] until my deathbed. I’m gonna give it right now. But I think what [01:16:35] I would say is life is too short. Uh, we’re all going to get to the to [01:16:40] the end anyway, so stop ticking boxes. Do it now. Say [01:16:45] I love you as much as you can, you know. Say it. [01:16:50] Sing it morning, evening and night. Just say I love you to each other. Uh. [01:16:55] Don’t hold back the love and forgive. Forgive fearlessly. [01:17:00] Because forgiveness is not for the other person, it’s for you. So [01:17:05] forgive. Forgive freely and fearlessly. That’s the advice I would give.
Payman Langroudi: Very [01:17:10] nice. Thank you so much. I really enjoyed, I’ve learnt a lot. Thank you. Really enjoyed it. Thanks for coming [01:17:15] all the way here.
Aditi Bhalla: For having.
Payman Langroudi: Me. Really enjoyed.
Aditi Bhalla: Thank you.
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